Saturday, May 13, 2006
Oh yea, I know I supposedly "moved", so I guess, this shall be my last post for the blog that has stuck with me, the past two years. And even getting deleted once.
I just wanna make things clear. I guess, I'm moving cause I'm sick of having the same url. This is MY blog, I have the right to say anything, do anything. It is MY life, I have the right to lead it the way I want. Its not like I've not been reading my tagboard, oh yea, I have alright. But like fatty 2 said, I'm not affected. You can call me anything you want, say anything you want. I don't really care. Cause its your life and I know I can't stop you. So why bother? I'm starting off, with a new blog, cause I'm so sick of coming t my blog day after day and hving unwanted spammers tagging. I mean, my tagboard is where my friends tag nice things. And you taggers are obviously not my friends, cause you don't respect the fact that its MY blog, My tagboard, not yours. If you wanna diss about someone else, do it on your own blog. Blog about it, noone can stop you. But there is a line between right and wrong. A clear line at that. If you cross the line, I can't stop you, but you've got the consequences t face. Don't forget, Action, Reaction. You do something, something will always come back t you. Its called Karma baby.
So long and goodbye, till next time, this is Joyene signing off.
Ps, I know you spammers have nothing better t do so.. Lets play hide and seek! (:
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Its funny how people can actuallu rip other's things, qoutes, fave sentenced from songs and write it all over their blogs. All below are qouted off a certain someone's blog.
the girl...
BEware SElf desturctin
what she WANTS
... A CASH MACHINE ..........
talk to her
ur jus the gal guys wanna dance wif and i m the guy wif too many chances.... ...every princess has a knight can i be urs?
"i miss mr tjc...i always want sometin which i can't haf
i find you cute but i think its a sin.."
OMG. Like HELLO? Freaking hell.
I wrote in my Friendster profile, BEWARE SELF DESTRUCTING, like in huge words. I wrote there, I wanted a cash machine. "Cause you're just the girl all the boys wanna dance with and i'm just boy who's had too many chances" is a line from Fall Out Boy's A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me" which I happen t like a lot and is coincidently in my Friendster profile too. I wrote "Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? in my Who I Want To Meet section. "I always want something I can't have" was one of my MSN nicks, and I made that line, "I find you cute but I think its a sin" for the girl I like. NOT for some random person t rip off and put on her blog and pretend like she made that line up herself. Bloody hell. And she's a bloody junior who I know. WTH.
Today was bloody pissifying. Post exam activities were crap. Inter house games were OK till some bloody shit people had t cabut and cause all of us t get punished, under the hot sun. I fell while playing powerball and now my knee's bleeding again cause a stupid guy hit into it just now. Bloody shit. Town was ok, but boring. We were observing this tow people who like met for the first time today. It was so funny shit! HAHA, Atiq and I are so.. Observant. (:
And and i just talked t mummy and realised I said 4 shits and 3 bloodys in like 3 mins. :/
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Teddy Geiger - For You I Will (Confidence)
Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.
Oh I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
A thousand times, no more camouflauge
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.
Oh I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do, to get through to you
Oh I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you, I'd do anything. I'm still waiting. Yea I said I'll move on, but right now I just can't. Can't bring myself to.
I like you.
I really do.
Been err, sometime since I updated. I was either too lazy or rushing Art. BLAH. I'm like in hool right now. Just me and Atiq alone in the library while everyone else is doing Amaths/Maths. HAHA, I suddenly feel glad I don't take Amaths BUT regret taking Art. I mean, Art's ok if you are like hardworking from the start and like do your work diligently. HOWEVER, I am obviously not of that sort and pushed it back till like Monday. I only like did my still life like Monday, and its not even complete yet, I mean, its mostly done but I'm like tired so I gave up on it. I'm lucky my fashion's like done, A LITTLE. BLAH! But yea, I'm gonna be a good girl and do it tmrw. Like start tmrw. HAHA. Anyway, I think my art freaking sucks. I think. But Atiq thinks its alright. BLAH! I don't know. I needdddd t pass art. PLEASE?
I'm fucking pissed with the school com cause the backspace button is like, BROKEN. And I can't like backspace properly and I'm like typing with a lot of spelling error! GRR. And I'm also pised cause I'm like having tutiotn later! LIKE WTH LAAAAA. GRRRRR, my mum is being irritating. BLAH.
Art is irritating. ):
Bloody hell.
Monday, May 08, 2006
We could leave this town and run forever.
Today's after school activities were so damn freaking funny! HAHAHAHA, I swear! So chem paper was shit, I didn't study for it anyway. If I get more than 30, I'm happy alr! HAHAHA. Then went out with Su cause I alr booked her! Haha. So we went t TBP to print my art pics first, then went t eat. Then we went Popular to buy my pencil and technical pens. I was so irritated cause they didn't have the size that I wanted but Wth I bought what was there. Then so we were walking then I forgot that we had t take the pics so I was like walking t the MRT station alr then Su reminded me. HAHA, damn. Then went t take the pics. AND THEY ARE FUCKING BLUR LA. My photographer skills/camera sucks. BAH! But nvr mind. I can make do with them.
Then went t KAP. Ride there was boring, I ended up re-carving her name on my arm. Hah. Reached KAP and crapped and rotted all the way. Did art and only managed t finish up ONE sketch. I'm in deep shit la. BLAH. KAP was funny! But but I can't remember in detail what happened! HAHAHA. Then decided t leave KAP then realised that we just missed the 154. BAH! Then I was like so lazy, so we were like ok, take cab ok! Then we wanted t flag for cab and we saw a 154 approaching! So I made Su run cause I was too lazy AND she looked like a total idiot! And I looked like one too cause I was shouting at her from the back t run faster. HAHAHAHA. So we got on the bus and this is where all the fun begins! HAHAHA. Ok it was boring at first cause Su wanted t sleep so she slept on my shoulder. Haha, you know when she was like totally sleeping, her head was like SO HEAVY! Then I think I sprained my neck, shoulder something there. HAHAHA. Then she woke up and we were both very hyper. Was thinking about Influx Tragedy (Our Band!) then I started being crappy, was nearing Boon Lay then was like air drumming then my phone dropped from my lap! HAHAHAHAHA, then we started being crappy then I was like air drumming again and this time my iPod dropped. HAHAHA, so we laughed all the way t Boon Lay and on the way t the 242. We were making fun of my "Eh, where'd the train!" when we were waiting for the bus. HAHAHA. Then boarded the 242 and we kept on singing and headbanging. HAHA, then acced her t Nanyang CC t sign up for the guitar course. Then her parents fetched her so I walked home alone. And her mummy thinks I look like MY mummy cause her mummy is a student in mu mummy's aerobics class and knows my mummy! HAHAHAHA, ok wtvr so many HAHAHAs and crap in this post. HAHAHA, BYEEE. (:
There's nothing without you,
I'm lost, broken, confused.
But I won't give up on you tonight.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Girl: I'm always here for you
Boy: I know
Girl: What's wrong?
Boy: I like her so much
Girl: Talk to her
Boy: I don't know. She won't ever like me
Girl: Don't say that. You're amazing.
Boy: I just want her to know how I feel.
Girl: Then tell her.
Boy: She won't like me
Girl: How do you know that?
Boy: I can just tell
Girl: Well just tell her.
Boy: What should I say
Girl: Tell her how much you like her
Boy: I tell her that daily
Girl: what do you mean?
Boy: I'm always with her. I love her.
Girl: I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he'll never like me
Boy: Wait. Who do you like?
Girl: Oh some boy
Boy: Oh... she won't like me either.
Girl: She does
Boy: How do you know..
Girl: Because, who wouldn't like you?
Boy: You
Girl: You're wrong, I love you.
Boy: I love you too.
Girl: So are you going to talk to her?
Boy: I just did.
Haha, don't you think its sweet AND stupid? Love. BAH.
Hey everybody and whoever's listening. This is the end of my so called life.
I can't fight this pain anymore. Seriously. I'm sick of everything. These cuts and burn, they hurt. Still, not as much as my heart. Third time this year, I've fallen for the wrong girl.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
But still I will always fight on for you.
I'm gonna post up pics of ytd when Su came over since I promised her I would.
That's about it I guess. I know, you must be thinking, Omg these two kids have nothing better t do! But we were just bored. Yupp.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
I guess I don't always get what I want.
Life's fucked up. Ok actually, just my
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone,
Thinking of you till it hurts.
I'm not ok, I'm really not ok. But you won't know, would you? I doubt you even care. And I don't believe you would actually believe me when I say I don't like you anymore, cause I still do. Too much, in fact. Just so you know, all my MSN nicks have been for you, and noone else since I first talked t you on the 9th. Bet you never knew, nor did you care. When I didn't receive your msg last night, it just set me thinking. People call me crazy, call me stupid. But I'm still waiting for you. Are you all that worth it? Yes, t me you are. Why am I waiting? I don't know. Yea, I'm stupid. Cause I know you'll never be mine. Cause you're fcuking straight. If I had one wish, I'd wish you were crook for one day. I just need one day.
And I find you cute, but I think its a sin.
Remember that? Yea, that's for you. Has always been, and will always be.
Tell me, is it worth waiting for you? Just tell me t my face. I need t know.
Thank you for everything and nothing.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
AIYA, coffee makes me stay up LATE and forces me t drink Redbull in the morn just t keep me awake. :/ People think I look sick&tired. Grr, stupid cough. My voice was damn raspy today pls, sorethroat. It feels better now, stopped coughing and my voice's returning t normal. Emaths and Lit tmrw, then KAP after school again. (: KAP today was lonely cause Erza and Gadis left me alone so I sat alone doing my work then people came t keep me company. Haha. (: Went home and fell asleep in the bus all the way t boon lay and didn't wake up till a kind soul woke me up. :P Embarassing ok. Hahaha, but I was THAT sleepy, and tired and exhausted. I need t sleep well today or else Maths would be a flop, just like Bio. :/ AND I officially hate Enemy of the People. BLEHHHHH. :/
Goodnight world, I'll be sleeping once I get a reply. (:
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Ok just one post for tdy,
"Women can fake orgasms,
but men can fake whole relationships."
- I don't remember who.
Nice quote don't you think? And very true at that.
Schl, then KAP then got pissed off and heard Emo Song Of The Year and cried(????!!!!!!!!) and pissed Bestie off, she got irritated. Had company after Bestie walked out on me, I swear Sarahh and Siew Ling crack me up! Just like Ryhan! BUUTTTTT Ryhan still my nutcracker gf. (:
So yea, that kinda like rounds up my day, uneventful huh?
And yea, my tag board's become a meet-your-perfect-match place. ????????
- Joyene
I realise I end my posts abruptly, don't I? Aiya who cares.
Monday, May 01, 2006
Today was freaking funny I tell you. So yea, studied a lil in the morning, then went t JP with my mummy t watch Ice Age 2. Was going t buy the tix THENNNN highlight of the day my mummy forgot her wallet. HAHAHAHA, I swear I almost died when she realised. But lucky I brought my wallet out so I had t pay for everything - tix, food, nachos. Hahaha, I was the mummy today! Then second funny thing that happened, was eating at banquet and my mummy went t buy food. AND when she came back, she exclaimed, EH WHERE'S MY CHAIR! HAHAHAHAHAHA, I didn't realise that her chair got stolen ok! Like HELLO?? Courtesy! Goodness, I'm still appalled! HAHAHAHA.
So yea, Bestie thinks I've been posting alot, I disagree ok! HAHAHAHAHA. ;D Bestie I wanna say somethingg for you. Hmmm, I'm really happy for you and Pokey. HAHAHAHA. (: Don't worry you can talk t me about her. Just because your love life is picking up and mine isn't doesn't mean I can't be there for you when you need me! Yupp, I'll always be here. (:
Nothing to lose - Billy Talent
Need more friends with wings
All the angels I know
Put concrete in my veins
I'd always walk home alone
So I became lifeless
Just like my telephone
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change
Never played truth or dare
I'd have to check my mirror
To see if I'm still here
My parents had no clue
That I ate all my lunches
Alone in the bathroom
There's nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothing to gain
But the days don't seem to change
There's nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There's nothing to gain
And I can't fight the pain
Teacher said it's just a phase
When I grow up my children
Will probably do the same
Kids just love to tease
Who knew it'd put me under ground
At seventeen
I swear listening t Billy Talent while studying doesn't work. The lead singer's voice is damn distracting la! HAHAHA.
I've managed t study like MORE bio. And and i'm redoing the TYSes. (: I hope I can get my A for bio pls! (:
- Joyene
Goodness! Do you know what time it is already! I'm so gonna have eyebags like tmrw. GRR. ): I wanna turn in buttt I can't sleep! GRRRRRR. Nvr mind I told her I'd sleep so sleep it is! Goodnight world! (:
This post was redundant sorry. HAHAHA.
- Joyene
Sunday, April 30, 2006
SMUDGER's. RED DEVILS WILL TRIUMPH NEXT SEASON. [ JOGA BONITO ! ] says:
but you're so stubborn and your head's hard as a solid rock, i bet she's just fall on your knees when you smile like THAT. you know, THE smile (:
HAHAHAHA, Dinie cracks me up, but not the same way Ryhan does. HAHAHA. (:
Anyway, this is the pic of my mummy & i!By the look of it, I think bestie'll have no time for me alr since she's gonna get a new gf soon. ): I need t look for a gf tooooooooo! :/ -cries. WHYYYY must bestie do this to me, why is she passive and I have t be active and like all the STRAIGHT girls. I got no fate la. :/ I swear I'm damn poor thing ok. I need t find a gf but so&so is so goddamn fucking straight I got no chance. Thanks ar. ):
- Joyene
I've heard it all before.
AIYA, Chem is getting on my nerves! GRR GRR, I'm studying and posting at the same time, how good is that? HAHAHA.
Today was boring, bowling was boring, life is boring. I need t get my broadband up and running soon cause mummy refuses t continue with the wireless. )))))))))))))): <3 break pls! I wanna use wireless la freaking hell.
ANYWAY, HELLO RYHAN<333333333. MY NUT CRACKER! (: And yes yes, you and su will get your kisses on Tuesday, I didn't forget! (:
Oh oh yea, I'll post up a pic of me and my mummy laterrr. (: I swear we look damn alike!
- Joyene
Saturday, April 29, 2006
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
i think you need a horse also
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? says:
whyyy?
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
cause you're a knight right
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
then she's stuck in the tower
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? says:
HAHAHAHA
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
so you must ride your horse through the dark deep woods
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
then throw rope climb ladder
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
then kiss her awake!
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
;D
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
hahahah!
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
hahaha then she'll throw her pretty hair down the window
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
only to find out its too short /:
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
HAHAHA
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
WTVR
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
but her hair is nice okay!
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
i'm so blogging bout this. hahahah
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
hahaha yay okay
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
i feel so honoured?
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
HAHAHAHA
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
wtvr
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
ryhan wil be the person to stand by the tower and pas you the rope
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
HAHAHA
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
seriously ryhan, you're crap today
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
hahahahahahaha
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? And oh yea, I need a horse too says:
you what, court jester ar?
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
i'm like this everyother day lah!
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
then when you reach her
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
i come in aeroplane
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
send you two to honey moon ;D
Well hey, every princess has a knight. Can I be yours? says:
hahahahah! will never happen. :/
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
okay it will never happen but can fantasize what
nous accrocherons dessus aux goodbyes. says:
;D
I SWEAR THIS CONVO IS DAMN FUNNY! RYHAN CRACKS ME UP! :D
- Joyeneeeeeeeeeeeee
OK, two baby pics which I chanced upon in my com. HAHAHAHA, don't look like me pls, WTVR.
OMG OMG OMG, you know Wayne Rooney MAYBE broke his leg? GRRRRRRR, stupid CHELSEA, I HATE HATE HATE EM. World Cup ehhhhh, how like thattt? England DIE la. ):
- Joyene
THIS POST IS ABOUT NUR ATIQAH BTE MOHD HATTA.
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HAHAHAHA, ok that's all I can say about her I guess.
(:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoXWzKQSi4s
OK, Its up alr! (: Sorry for the shaky vid and whispering in the background, I've got a bad videographer = FARINA. HAHAHAHA, so yea, don't mind! (:
- Joyene
Did I tell you, my mummy's weird. She suddenly told me she's raising my allowance, and I didn't even ask for a raise! Meaning I get 318 bucks a month, including 18 for phone and 50 for transport. At this rate, I won't be broke anymore! (: I'm happyyyy girl for now. (:
AND YouTube decided t be a bitch and not upload my vid. GRR, I'll do it later la.
- Joyene
I've been studying the whole day. GRRRRRRRR. Brain's no longer absorbing anything so I've decided t blog. Ok, I changed my skin cause I was bored with the prev one and yea. I'm too lazy t make a new one for myself. But this one's nice, I like The Click Five! (:
YouTube is taking bloody long t upload my oratorical vid, I'll be back t post later when it finally does. Yupp.
If you'd only let it be,
- Joyene
Friday, April 28, 2006
Aiya I'm bored shit and my head's pounding like crazy.
English paper was ok I guess? Wrote about anger. Anger = Hate = War/Abuse = Violence = Suffering = Loss of lives. Crazy shit. I don't wanna blog anymore. I'm tired.
- Joyene
Thursday, April 27, 2006
I'm good good good t go.
Hey, will be on hiatus IF I decide t be good and mug for mids. But just in case I don't, I'll be back soon. Hahaha. (:
Fall out boy's still in my headddd.
- Joyene
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
You can never go wrong if you let me hold you.
Been on hiatus cause I was deprived of my com for two days cause I forgot t bring home the charger. Fuck it la.
Its so funny t see new anons tagging on my blog. Haha, seriously. can tell they don't even know shit about me cause they're even asking me if I'm Muslim. LIKE HELLOOOOO? What's the Binte in my name for then? What could you have possibly been thinking all this while? Unless you don't even have a brain t think with, which is HIGHLY likely. Sheesh.
So anyway, I think I'm lucky, cause I've a butt. Unlike some people who don't have any! Haha, who the hell wants a flat ass anyway. And so what if YOU THINK I've big boobs? I'm gifted. God decided t give me ASSETS. Unlike you, failure girls who are as flat as washboards. You give me t wash my clothes also I don't want la. Tsk tsk. And if you think my boobs are big, I think you've not gone t town before rightt? You never see bungs who's boobs are like HUGE ar? Tsk tsk. Shallow.
Btw, I think its better t be a failure bung than t turn PL. Disgusting.
Monday, April 24, 2006
My heart is on my sleeve,
Wear it like a bruise or black eye.
My badge, for weakness,
Means that I believed,
Every single lie you said.
You\'re just the girl all the boys want to dance with.
And I\'m just the boy who took too many chances.
Write me off, give up on me.
\'Cause darling what did you expect?
I\'m just off, a lost cause, a long shot, don\'t even take this bet.
Keep quiet,
Nothing comes as easy as you.
Can I lay in your bed all day?
I\'ll be your best kept secret
And your biggest mistake.
The hand behind this pen relieves a failure every day.
Always you make my stomach turn,
I am such a sucker,
And I\'m always the last to know.
My insides are copper,
I\'d kill to make them gold.
I loved you since I knew you
I wouldn\'t talk down to you
I have you to tell just how I feel
I won\'t share you with another boy
I know my mind is made up (oh)
So put away your make up
Told you once I won\'t tell you again
It\'s a bad way
This has been said so many times that I\'m not sure if it matters.
But we never stood a chance,
And I\'m not sure if it matters.
If you are the shores, I am the waves begging for big moons.
I\'m mailing letters to addresses in a ghost town.
You are a getaway car - a rush of blood to the head
But me, I\'m just the covers on top of your bed
You steer in a rear view mirror - make my head swim
I keep you warm and won\'t ask you where you\'ve been
With your backless black dress soaked to the skin
When it\'s said and down they\'re all scrambling
And we\'re friends, we\'re friends
Just because we move units
Strike us like matches, cause everyone deserves the flames
We only do it for the scars and stories, not the fame
At least everyone is trying, everyone is shining
Everyone deserves the flames but it\'s such a shame
Such a shame
Please put the doctor on the phone, because I\'m not making any sense.
Crazy la this post. I\'m addicted t Fall Out Boy. (:
Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
- Joyene
Sunday, April 23, 2006
From : +659482277*
hey jo..if u dare ta beat up rez..then meet her at republic poly in front of your school..at 3.30pm..
To : +6594822776
Who's this?
From : +659482277*
a fren of hers..u dun need ta n0e me..bt if u n ur gang dare ta beat her up..meet her at rp at 3.30pm..if u beat her up straight after school..u just watch out..
To : +659482277*
Why should I wait till 330 t beat her up if I can beat her up in school? And do you think we're so stupid t beat her up? We're just gonna teach her a lesson. Aiya you're just a no face no name coward you come find me and beat me up first la, I'll make youyou go t jail for it. ((: thank you, good night.
From : +659482277*
haha.. very funny..fine..i'm fariz from clementi..n i'm n0 coward..well if u wanna teach her a less0n..y dun u teach her at rp? u dun wan ur teachers ta n0e abt tis..so y dun u come down n teach me a lesson before u teach rez a lesson..haha..lo0ks whos the coward now..
To : +659482277*
Haha, you really mean it? Haha, pick on someone your own size and gender please. You boys have no right t touch girls, unless you want me t scream molest?
From :+659482277*
u're a lesbian..a cro0k..nt a gal..haha..i'm picking sm1 my own size..she-man..
To : +659482277*
Haha, so what if I'm a lesbian? I still have a vagina. You're a dickhead. Then your friend Rez eh? She also crook, wannabe she-man, wtvr you call it. Haha, you're such a doofus I'm not even gonna waste my msges on you la. Go have a wet dream, GAY BOY.
From : +659482277*
gay b0y? fine..wtvr..idun give a shit.. come one la.. u tell me ta pick on sm1 of my size..then why u pick on rez? she ain't your size bitch..
At this point I just had t reply.
To : +659482277*
Can tell you were affected, GAY BOY. Why I pick on rez? Its not only me, half the school is after her blood. Why don't you try t stop half the school? Hmmm, at least we're the same kind, she-man right? Yea, we don't have dicks. Aiya good night la you bastard. Masturbate or something.
At least I'm nice enough t censor the last digit of his number. HAHA, I swear he's a gay boy. He wants t defend Rezwana, from half a school of angry girls? Hell hath no fury like
Uh oh, you're in trouble. - wags finger.
- Joyene
And it just kills me, how they get away with murder. So I'm gonna get away with it, tmrw.
I heard its the biggest news around school, so now almost everyone knows. (: Rezwana dear junior, watch out. I mean it.
Anyone sees her tmrw, feel free t spit in her face. (:
- Joyene
EH JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE LA.
I'm so pissed off with waiting but here I am. Waiting.
I contradict myself too much.
- Joyene
I wanna tell you a story about a sec 1 girl from my school. This girl is damn geek with her ugly face and hair that's constantly gelled up. From this, all of you can tell that she doesn't know the school rules cause they CLEARLY state that gel is not allowed in school.
I don't like her cause she acts like a bitch. Even though she's a good hockey player, I'm not proud having her in my team. She's a disgrace t our team. Never have I heard of a girl like her. I'm very very disappointed in her cause I used t talk t her and think that she was a really really good hockey player.
I wanna tell you way I really hate her. Its because she likes t act big even though she's only a sec 1. She likes t chat and hang around and go out with seniors. I'm not saying its wrong, but she wants t befriend sec3 and 4 snrs too. She thinks that everyone likes her and wants t be her friend but she is so wrong. She wants t be a bung but she's really really CMI. I think she shouldn't act like this cause lots of people dislike her cause of that. I think its really stupid for her t do whatever she's doing.
That's not all. She made me hate her cause of what she wrote on her blog. She blogged about another person's problem in such detail and emotion it was as if she was the one facing the problem. Not only that, but she also humiliated the person involved in the matter. She was the only one who blogged in full detail what happened, none of her other friends did so.
Because of that, my friends and I have decided t beat her up to our heart's content on Monday. We will make her into kuih lapis. We'll flatten her hair too. Before we disfigure her, we will say Bismillah and once we're done with her, she will say Alhamdulilah. On Sunday we will all pray first and hope that God won't be angry with us. If the sec 1 girl DOES die, we're hoping that she won't stay in hell too long. 10000 years will do.
HAHAHA. That was a direct translation of my malay post so don't mind me if the english sounds a lil wrong or awkward at certain parts pls.
- Joyene
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Saya hendak bercerita tentang budak menengah1 daripada sekolah saya. Budak ini sangat kentalan dengan muka dia yang sungguh hodoh and rambutnya yang selalu di"gel". Dari ini, kami semua tahu bahawa beliau tidak tahu tentang undang-undang sekolah. Sudah dicatat bahawa gel tidak boleh digunakan di sekolah.
Saya tidak suka padanya kerana beliau bersikap seperti anging betina. Walaupun beliau seorang pemain hoki yang bagus, saya tidak gembira yang beliau bermain untuk pasukan sekolah kita. Beliau adalah kemaluan kepada pasukan kita. Tidak pernah saya terdengar tentang orang sebegini. Saya amat kesal dengannya kerana saya pernah bercakap dengannya dan fikir bahawa beliau seorang pemain hoki yang amat baik.
Saya hendak beritahu kamu kenapa saya amat benci padanya. Ini kerana beliau suka bersikap besar walaupun beliau menengah1 sahaja. Beliau suka berbual dan keluar dengan murid-murid yang lebih tua darinya. Itu bukannya salah tetapi beliau pun hendak berkawan dengan murid-murid menengah3 and keatas. Beliau rasa bahawa semua orang suka padanya dan semua orang hendak berkawan dengannya tetapi beliau amat salah. Beliau hendak menjadi 'bung' tetapi beliau betul-betul gagal dengan begitu teruk. Saya rasa beliau tidak sepatutnya bersikap sebegini kerana ramai orang tidak menyukainya kerana ini. Saya rasa ia sangat bodoh untuk melakukan sebegitu.
Bukan itu sahaja. Beliau dapat menghasratkan kebencian saya kerana apa yang beliau menulis di 'blog' beliau. Beliau menulis tentang hal orang lain di dalam blognya dengan sungguh terang dan emosi, seperti beliau yang menghadapi masalah itu. Bukan itu sahaja, tetapi beliau juga memalukan orang yang terlibat dalam perkara itu. Beliau sahaja yang blog dengan terang apa yang terjadi sementara kawan-kawannya yang lain tidak membuat begitu.
Kerana itu, saya dan rakan-rakan saya telah berbincang untuk rembatnya dengan puas hati pada hari Isnin. Kami akan membuatnya seperti kuih lapis. Rambutnya pun kami akan melepeh-lepehkan. Sebelum kami tenye mukanya, kami akan baca Bismillah dahulu dan selepas kami habis dengannya, kami akan baca Alhamdulillah. Pada hari Ahad, kami akan baca doa dahulu dan harap yang Tuhan tidak marah dengan kami. Harap-harap, jika budak menengah1 itu mati, beliau todak ke neraka terlalu lama. 10000 tahun dah cukup.
Ok that was in Malay and I don't know if I even got it right, WTH. Nvr mind. If I'm bored, i shall translate it for the rest of you.
You better watch out,
you better not cry.
- Joyene
I know its like how many weeks after CrezAwards alr but yea, I finally managed t upload the video for our dance. (It was videotaped by Natria's friend when we were still together so don't mind the biasness in the recording. HAHA.)
Watch it here -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXQKxPKh92s
Should I grow my hair like that? Atiq has violent objections. She thinks that hair look like unkempt hair, but that's the whole point! Hahaha, ok now I really don't know whether t cut or grow like that.
Friday, April 21, 2006
And I'm not giving up on life, just for you.
I've decided t be only A LITTLE emo from now on. Its happy Joyene everyday from now on. ((((: And and and no more suicidal thoughts!
(:
I'm still in like with you, just so you know.
- Joyene
Dear everybody and whoever's listening.
This is the end of my so called life.
HAHA, don't worry la, I'm not about t kill myself just yet. (: Its just a song.
Any other girl don't matter, you're the only one I need.
They got a lotta girls
Who know they got it goin' on
But nothing's ever a comparison to you
Now can't you see
That you're the only one I really want
And everything I need
Is everything you do
Any girl walk by, don't matter
Cause you're looking so much better
Don't ever need to get
Caught up in jealousy
She could be a super-model
Every magazine, the cover
She'll never, ever mean a thing to me
I think you're perfect
There ain't nothin' I would change
- Joyene
Our love is pure, true and simple,
It is without much drama,
It is without the action,
It isn\'t complicated,
It is just pure, true and simple,
Just like how love supposedly is.
We are not really different,
We love the same way,
Only to the same gender,
It\'s still love, nonetheless.
I got that off a gay couple\'s blog, chech em out at www.colinandkero.blogspot.com Bestie intro-ed it t me, and its really cute, they\'re relationship. Bestie thought they were lesbians but realised they were gays after looking at their pics. Hahah!
Gotta go, bye.
- Joyene
Everything\'s feeling unclear.
Grr, early in the morning and I\'m feeling irritated alr. Mr Loh is scolding the rest for their Amaths homework. Makes me thankful I\'m not taking Amaths anymore. Phew. He\'s making people stay back just t finish up his homework and he\'s getting irritated and raising his voice with those who didn\'t. Grr, irritating me also. He\'s such a nag. And so CMI sarcastic.
Ok, I guess I\'m not feeling too bad this morning. In fact, I feel quite happy? I think. Hmmm.
Always said I would know where to find love
Always thought I\'d be ready and strong enough
But sometimes I just felt I could give up
Maybe I\'m not giving up, not this time.
Well every princess has her knight
And I\'m still in it for the fight
Not givin\' in I\'m gonna win, win, win.
Ok, this post is full of qoutes from songs. Haha.
I just hope you\'d give me a chance.
- Joyene
Thursday, April 20, 2006
It's unbelievable but I believed you
Unforgiveable but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
I think you're fine.
Sat beside a really really big man on the bus home. That really set me thinking. I was made t feel so small, inferior, vulnerable. I was made t squeeze t the corner, pushed aside. That's exactly the way life is now. I'm vulnerable, being pushed aside. And there's nothing I can do about it.
I plucked up enough courage t wave bye t her in the canteen just now. I mean, I just had to do something. I couldn't act like I didn't know her or anything. It'd feel so awkward. But i couldn't possibly just say hi t her in front of her friends righttt. Hmmm. My heart beat so fast I swear my chest was about t burst. But I managed t do it and I'm really proud of myself. I think.
I'm www.neglectedchild.com today. Everyone forgot I exist and forgot t get me dinner, so I hadta t cook on my own. ): Sad case la. BUT I shouldn't blame em since they're so busy with work and all. Lucky I know how t cook please.
Atiq, I hope you're ok. There're really many other people out there who will you, she doesn't deserve your tears and all ok. (: Cheer up so I'd cheer up bestie! (:
(Btw, Bestie cut her hair a girl version of my hair! HAHA, now we look like PBs cause Atiq's the new bung in town. (: )
Why're you trying t do without me ,
when you've got me where you want me?
- Joyene
Ok, maybe, I'm not moving on.
I'm so fickle.
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
Yea, maybe its just time I moved on for real. Like no longer waiting for an answer. I know what it's gonna be anyway so I don't really care anymore. The more I look at you, the more it hurts. The more you smile, the more I cry inside. GRRRRRRRR. Emo fuck is NOT helping me study. Seriously.
Hey Juliet - LMNT
Hey I've been watching you.
Every little thing you do.
Every time I see you pass by my homeroom class,
makes my heart beat fast.
I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes
Wish I could make you real
but your lips are sealed. That ain't no big deal.
I hear your friends talk about me.
So why you trying to do without me.
When you got me where you want me
Hey Juliet
I think you're fine.
You really blow my mind
Maybe some day you and me can run away.
I just want you to know.
I wanna be your Romeo.
Hey Juliet
Girl you got me on my knees.
Beggin' please, baby please.
Got my best DJ on the radio waves sayin',
"Hey Juliet, what are you doin' this week?"
Too far to turn around
So I'm gonna stand my ground
Gimme just a little bit of hope
With a smile or a glance
Give me one more chance
I hear your friends talk about me.
So why you trying to do without me.
When you got me where you want me
Hey Juliet
I think you're fine.
You really blow my mind
Maybe someday you and me can run away.
I just want you to know.
I wanna be your Romeo.
Hey Juliet
I hear your friends talk about me.
So why you tryin' to do without me.
When you got me. Where you want me.
If you want us to stay forever
For us to hang together
So-hear-me-when I-say
Hey(Hey hey hey Hey) Juliet
Hey Juliet
I think you're fine.
You really blow my mind
Maybe some day you and me can run away.
I just want you to know.
I wanna be your Romeo.
Hey Juliet
I wanna be your Romeo.
- Joyene
When darkness turns t light, its ends tonight, it ends tonight.
School now, its so freaking early in the morning and I'm blogging. Life's been ok. I asked someone out for a study date tdy but I doubt its gonna happen so yeaa. I'm gonna miss Atiq cause she's going out on a date with someone else. She's leaving me aloneeeeeee. -cries. Nvr mind, I just hope I can go study with her tdy. Anyway, the main point of this post is t give a LOUD shout out t Atiq,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTBEST BESTIE!!!! ((((:
Heheee. (:
- Joyene
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Hahaha, you know what? Losers nowadays hate doing homework.
1. If you want t impost as me, at least learn how I type my own name and realise that I don't say eff, I just say FUCK. (: And its Joyene, not joyene. (: Thank you.
2. I have decided not t tag back at my board anymore. HAHA. So you think you can outsmart me? Think again, doofuses. (:
I'm seriously gonna fall off my bed laughing! (: Thank you for making my day happier, fucking fuckers! (:
- Joyene
I just wanna say that I love Nur Atiqah bte Mohd Hatta t the fcuking core of the earth! (((:
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I SIMPLY LOVE HER. <33333333333333333
- Joyene
Its just a simple case of like.
Came home t an empty apartment and remembered the song empty apartment by yellowcard. Hmmm. Life's not been really good. But I'm kinda ok I guess? She said hi t me today. Yea, highlight of the day I guess. Made my morning. (:
School was normal.
Went t town with bestie after school. Had a craving for Jap food so we went t Suki Ramen at Cine t eat. Guess how muhc the bill was? $29.35 for two people. :/ We've been eating alot lately, me&bestie. ): We're gonna grow fat soon, BUTTTT at least not short and fat like some peopleeee, rightttt ATIQ? (((: *winks. Then we decided, spending 20 bucks on prints ytd weren't enough sooooo, we took somemore prints! (: Pretty prints, I love! (: Then we bought Famous Amos cookies like ytd and went t walk around Heeren. Saw Su, so we decided t stalk her but we were baddd at it. :/ HAHA. Hmmm. Then went home, and bumped into Su AGAIN, so I took the 242 with her. Yea. That kinda like sums up my day I guess.
This is for Atiq :
Atiq, don't be sad amymore k bestie. (: Jojo's always here for you even though I'm sad too. I'll always be here t make you smile, alright? I guess love just sucks sometimes, but just don't question it. Why hate when loving is such a virtue? Yea. She may not be the right one, but there're many others in the sea. Ok I sound cliche but WTH. Yea. So cheer up k bestie? So that I'll cheer up too. (((((((((((:
Nothing hurts like love. Period.
- Joyene
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me.
Why is it, everytime I decide t like someone, I'm always just chasing my own heartbreak? Why can't the person that I like right now just like me back? Why must I be the one waiting and waiting for nothing t come? I just need one chance with you, t love you a lifetime. Why can't I get that chance? I'm asking so many questions, but not getting a single answer. I just wanna know, if there's any chance between us. I know, you told me t move on alr, but I can't help but stay and wait, hoping and praying that you'd turn for me. I know, it may be impossible but till that day, I'll be waiting. I just need an answer. A definate Yes, or No. I just need that from you. Is it hard t give me? Can't you see, I could love you more than you can imagine. I know its not your fault. I'm not forcing you t like me back or anything. But when I asked if you would give me a chance if I could win your heart, you just gave a reply, saying you're straight. I don't take rejection well. Cause I can feel that things would work out for us. I just know it. Somewhere, somehow, I just know it would.
Just let me love you.
I'm sorry I'm being emo right now. Things are just overwhelming me. I've been breaking down over simple things, throwing tantrums at Atiq. I'm just not feeling myself anymore. Things are shooting at me all at once and mids are coming so I hafta mug like hell. Its like I'm suffocating right now.
I find it hard t smile,
This laugh is a plastic fake.
We could be MORE than just amazing.
Just believe me. Please. Just this once.
- Joyene
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
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Jo's bestest bestie invaded her account just to help her post this picture up.
This is due to the fact that her internet's being sucha bitch :/
Irritant of the day, HAHA.
Anwwwww Jo loves the neo on the right.
AND I LOVE THE ONE IN BLUE BEST(((:
Its so prettyyyyy please ;D
BIG BOSS WANNABES & ROCKSTARS :DDDD
Ok byebye I dont know what to say.
Oh oh oh, I love you Bestie and thanks for everything youve done.
Good day - The Click Five
I woke up early in my hotel room
Wait for my alarm to go
I think about the things I\'ve gotta do
Damn, my mind is gonna blow
I\'m thinking out about what\'s ahead
Maybe I\'ll just stay in bed
Cause it\'s no fun to be the one going out of my head
So I tell it to myself again
You\'re looking for something you can\'t find
If you give it up you\'ll lose your mind
There\'s always something in your way
What can you say?
You\'re gonna have a
I quit my job about a week ago
Told them that I need some time
Now I\'m going strong on Lexapro
Doctor says I\'m doing fine
I\'m thinking out about what\'s ahead
Maybe I\'ll just stay in bed
Cause it\'s no fun to be the one going out of my head
So I tell it to myself again...
You\'re looking for something you can\'t find
If you give it up you\'ll lose your mind
There\'s always something in your way
What can you say?
You\'re gonna have a
Just when I thought, I couldn\'t lose
I realized it\'s the only thing I knew
I\'m freaking out about what\'s ahead
Maybe I\'ll just stay in bed
Cause it\'s no fun to be the one going out of my head
So I tell it to myself
Tell it to myself
Tell it to myself again
You\'re looking for something you can\'t find
If you give it up you\'ll lose your mind
There\'s always something in my way...
You\'re looking for something you can\'t find
If you give it up you\'ll lose your mind
There\'s always something in your way
What can you say?
You\'re gonna have a
You\'re gonna have a good day
You\'re gonna have a good day
- Joyene
Monday, April 17, 2006
Its undeniable that we should be together.
I've been blogging alot lately, don't ask. I don't wanna recap on tdy, wanna know can refer t Atiq's blog cause I'm too lasy t type.
I'm sad right now, cause t date, I haven't seen her for like 4 days alr? Since Friday. Life sucks. ):
I got another jab alr, its making me sleepy and all. Ytd was the right arm, today the left arm. I wonder tmrw where. :/ (That smiley somehow makes me smile too btw) Btw, did I tell you my antibiotics are like exactly the same colour as my braces? ORANGE AND BLACK. :D Its damn nice, it makes me wanna eat it all the time. But its so shit that I hafta take it 4 times a day, meaningggg...... I'll hafta wake up at 1am t eat my medicine. You want me t die is it? WTH la. Crazy doctor. I refuse t way up in the middle of the night t eat my medicine, however pretty it is. :P
I feel like turning in now but its like only 8.45 pm. I haven't finished my homework but I'm so freaking tired. Lucky I've got an excuse for mass run tmrw, thank god! Or else I'll die, seriously.
Nothing hurts like love. Seriously.
- Joyene
Never knowing what could have been.
You're not seeing that loving you
is what I've been trying t do,
Give me a chance and I'll
love you a lifetime,
Promise you'll stay and I'll give you
ETERNITY
I came up with that during chem, but that's exactly what I want t say t you.
Its funny how you turn my frown into a smile all the time.
But sometimes I just wished you felt about me the way I feel about you.
- Joyene
What\'s with the world?
What\'s with the world?
OH GOD, WHAT\'S WITH THE WORLD!
(That\'s Atiq\'s line btw.)
I\'ve gotta go t the docs in three days time for another check-up and three more jabs. HELLO? 4 jabs in 4 days? Who won\'t die.
I hope everything\'s going to be fine, sighs. - Atiq.
Ok Atiq just invaded my com. Tsk tsk. Hmmm. Life sucks you know. I\'m in pain, I\'m not even supposed t be in school now but I am anyway.
i am inlov with morgan (Ok, I\'m not)
i am (I\'m not)
Hahaha, everyone\'s invading my com please. Hahaha, I haven\'t seen * yet. ):
Morgan is an idiot, she actually thinks that my LCD crack looks like a leaf. Sherwin too! Hahaha, goodness la. Why does everyone think so please. Hahaha.
It\'s supposed t be Geog now but Ms Pham has decided not t teach and has gone out of class. WTH is this. She claims we are not interested in her class and don\'t wanna listen and all. WTHH. It\'s like I was trying t listen like fcuk and she was like talking t herself how do I hear her? Wtvr. She\'s like talking t herself la, we wanna listen also we get pissed off. WTH. Ok, there were many WTHs in this paragraph I am really in a pissed off WTH mood tdy, don\'t mind me.
I\'ll post again later. I think.
- Joyene
Sunday, April 16, 2006
There's nothing I won't do for you
I just realised that the heading for my last two posts were the same! Hahaha.
I'll stop the world and melt with you.
That line's in my headddddd.
:D
- Joyene
I'll stop the world and melt with you
I swear Su is such a sweetie. (:
http://artpad.art.com/?ixt94d13lb6s
Check it outt. (: Its so cute la! Haha, she made my day again! (:
Today was ok I guess, went out and bought sb. Then my mummy bought me a bikini and expects me t wear it t Hawaii in June. NO WAY I'M DOING THAT. I've gotta think of a way t wriggle out of this SOON. Sheesh.
My com's being a bitch, its so freaking slow.
And my phone has not vibrated for the past 2 hours or so. GRR.
- Joyene
Saturday, April 15, 2006
I'll stop the world and melt with you.
Hollaback finals was ok I guess. Yupp. Nothing's much t say, just that The Click Five rocks! Really. And, tdy was the first time i actually had fun the whole week. Listening t this song just now made me remember someone! Haha :$ So I shall dedicate this t her. Haha, (:
Just The Girl - The Click Five
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She threw a red sponge on my white school shoes
She laughs at my
But I
Strange as it seems
She's the one
I'm after
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself,
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
She can't keep a secret for more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I dont want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
But when she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
'Cause every word she's ever said
Still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined
'Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself,
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
'Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
Hahaha, ok that's the end of my post I guess. (:
:$
- Joyene
Sulastri Ryanti is such a sweetheart. She made me smiel with this: http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?ixq24g16igdg Check it out! Its so sweet I wanna cry.
I'm not afraid to cry once in a while.
The number of times I've cried is more than once in a while. I cried the least today. Two times the whole day. Record this week. I swear I am very very tempted t take friend out and slash but I don't wanna hurt Atiq and whoever told me not t cut. But I am THIS close to cutting, and I'm really tempted cause there's no point in living anyway. I'm becoming who I was before. Someone I wasn't proud of back then but I'm becoming the old Joyene. The depressed, sad, self mutilative one. I tried t change. I tried for the people around me. For nat, for mummy. But I'm really disappointed in myself. Cause I keep letting them down. Joyene, the failure of the century. I'm noone. I'm just Joyene, sitting in the corner crying with a razor in her hand.
Let me bleed
Let me cry
Let me wonder why
Let me die.
I'm in no mood for Hollaback Finals tmrw, but I'm going for the sake of getting out of the house. This place has become a jail. Mummy's locked the windows even though the grills are alr locked. I think she thinks I'm gonna commit suicide. Sheesh.
Looks like you've moved on for good.
- Joyene
Ps, What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts is in my head.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
I've got a pair of tix t the hollaback crew finals on Saturday on sale. Anyone interested please contact me at man_u_fan_1234@hotmail.com. Price is negotiable.
- Joyene
Its officially over.
1 year, 10 days and it over for good. But me and nat are still best friends forever.
I will always love you, best friend.
- Joyene
And underneath the haze, one thing still remains the same.
Life's been a chaos. So many ups and down and highs and low in one day. This is killing us(bestie&I). I broke down like 6 times today, I feel like a big crybaby.
On the way home, I kept making fun of Bestbest and kept saying she was ugly. She got irritated so she slapped me 11 times in 10 mins, hit my head and back and almost strangled me half t death. Haha, that girl sure can be violent. So yea, life's been pretty much fcuked up and noone knows why, except bestie.
I'm begging you t be my escape.
- Joyene
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
International Friendship Day.
Hello. Tdy is International Friendship Day. Yea. This post is for Atiq!
(She\'s giggling beside me while I\'m being freaking emo now. Sheesh.)
Dear Atiq, (Ok, I sound freaking formal)
You\'re the bestest bestie I can ever have. Its true and I know you know it! Hahahaha. Ok, I\'m starting t giggle caues I\'m so shy t post this. Hahaha. (: So yea, we gotta go play the find the qoute and name the people game! And don\'t forget hat you owe me a forfeit ok! hahahaha. Hmmm. YAY I\'m really posting this,. I rock rightt? Heehee, I know! (: Hahaha, I have so much t say but I\'m so lazy type. Haha. (:
That\'s all I guess. (:
I love you, wo ai ni, saya cintakan awak, BESTIE!
- Joyene
A lie for the sake of my pride.
Its 0157am in the morning. And i'm not a single bit sleepy. Sighs. I slept and woke up and now I can't sleep again.
You know what sucks? Having everyone around you happy and in love and you're the only one depressed and in a dilemma. Everyone just forgets about you and there you are, having t fend for yourself. Its been a long time since I bled so much. This is crazy.
I better try t turn in now. Or else I won't play attention in class tmrw. And I can't afford that cause I have t do well for mid years, which is just around the corner. And being he good girl that I am, I have actually started studying.
And its funny what you do t me.
How you make me feel that
We could be more than just amazing
- Joyene
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Today, is the day I picked up my old friend and slashed.
Here, I lie bleeding for you.
- Joyene
Amazing - Westlife
You\'re like a storm against the window.
Follow me around just like a shadow.
I’ll swim a never-ending ocean,
until you bring back your devotion.
It’s like I live a thousand lifetimes.
Still looking for the one that feels right.
See, moving on just isn’t working;
you lit the fire that I’m burning.
And all I can do is protect it,
A lie for the sake of my pride.
While all the others had me thinking,
we could be more than just amazing.
I guess I’m holding on to my faith.
A silent hope I’m heading your way.
And crawling over is so tempting;
We could be more than just amazing.
And all I can do is protect it,
a lie for the sake of my pride.
While all the others had me thinking,
we could be more than just amazing.
I couldn’t see it;
I must have believed a lie.
If I admit it would you let me make it right?
(Amazing, Amazing, Amazing)
Is it all Wrong?
Oh no.
(Say it all..)
We could be more than just;
We could be more than just amazing.
(Oh yeah..)
And all I can do is protect it,
A lie for the sake of my pride.
And all the others had me thinking,
we could be more than just amazing. (Oh yeah..)
And all I can do is protect it,
A lie for the sake of my pride.
While all the others had me thinking,
straight to the point of what I’m feeling,
Oh we could be more than just amazing.
- Joyene
Monday, April 10, 2006
Papa Roach - Scars
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is
[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
[Chorus]
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I'm tempted t use that razor.
- Joyene
Sunday, April 09, 2006
And its not gonna happen like that.
Hey. Funfair ytd. Too lazy t elaborate. Hmm. It was cool I guess and I was shaking those shakers like crazy cause everyone wanted fruit punch. Heheee. Had fun with Nat and Bestie and Ryhan and Su after cabut-ing(running) from my stall. Haha.
Lazy t blog la.
Bye.
- Joyene
Thursday, April 06, 2006
In the game of love, I'm always the loser.
Our love has become a great game, one wrond move and you're out. There's no second chance. And in this game, I have t be the loser. I always am.
This love, has taken its toll on me. You said goodbye, too many times before.
I tread on the broken glass, slowly and carefully picking em up, piecing em together. Last night i dropped all those pieces and gave up. I fell on those broken pieces and cut myself. I bled, I cried. And till today, no explantion. Nothing. I'm still lying in my bed of broken glass, awaiting my death. Waiting t breathe my last breath.
Blind - Lifehouse
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
If you're walking out on me,
I'm walking after you.
- Joyene
Monday, April 03, 2006
Nobody's gonna love me better, I must stick with you forever. (:
Dear Natria,
Its been one year, we've been together. Just wanna say I love you lots and lots of jelly tots. (: Never expected t last this long with you baby.
I know I've hurt you in the past, and I know I've strayed but I'm here t make it up t you and nothing's gonna come between us again. I'm devoted t you, and only you. Forever and ever.
CHIP <3 DALE
- Joyene
Saturday, April 01, 2006
You've got the whol world ahead of you, I'm sorry I didn't say good bye, I'm sorry I made you cry.
I lost a best friend, quite sometime ago and she lost me last night. Now I'm ready t open up and make her understand what I'm feeling, what I've been feeling.
She was the bestest best friend I could ever have. But she met someone else and forgot about me. She liked that person and since then she changed. She kept coming t me for advice but everytime I told her something, she wouldn't listen. I got fed up with her coming t me t complain and whine all the time but I held on strong and tried t be her pillar of strength. After a while, I started falling for her. And when I told her, she told me she liked me back. But all the time, it was always about someone else. I could have given my all t her till she told me we couldn't be cause she treasured our friendship more. I had already given 3/4 of me and t hear that was heartbreaking. Still, I never stopped being her friend. When I had finally gotten over her, she told me she liked me. I didn't know what t do. So I decided, ignoring her was the best thing I could do, cause I didn't wanna lead her on. I thought, I'll ignore her till I was very sure she didn't like me anymore. But things didn't turn out like I expected. I began t get angry with her for breaking up with her ex and going for this other girl, who didn't like me a single bit. Neither do I. I began beng tempremental. Yea, I know I was wrong. But sometimes, things just have t happen. No matter how hard I tried t control, I just couldn't. A few nights ago, I asked her, why her and not her ex? And she talked t me, and told me all the things she did when she liked me. T tell you the truth, I cried so I told her I didn't wanna talk t her anymore. Cause it was just gonna hurt me. Last night, she came with her group of friends and she was there. I lost my temper, a scene broke out. But I cried. Why? Cause honestly, I hated her. I hated her for taking my best friend away from me and changing her. She wasn't gonna be committed t her, I knew that. But my best friend wouldn't listen t me. She couldn't see it. I guess she decided t break off all ties with her alr, last night. I guess that's how things had t turn out.
To my ex best friend ;
Atiq. I still love you as my best friend. But if things had t turn out like this then I guess we just gotta let this be. I'll be here for you when you decide t talk t me again. I'll always be here when you need me. Maybe I just needed time then.
________________
CrezAwards ytd was ok. Recorded my dance and it looked a lil screwed la. But it was ok but we didn't win. Sheesh. Got second. Sighs. Nvr mind, it was a great experience. Yupp.
You always want what you can't have
- Joyene
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Crescent Hockey #1!
I cried ytd cause we played damn well and we deserved t win more than St Nicks. But more cause it was our last game together, as Crescent 'B' div 06. I'll miss the rest, even though I missed a few training, I knew how much effort every single one of em put in. I'll miss the blood, sweat and tears. I'll miss the laughter and joy of being around em. All the stupid times and team talks and getting scolded and punished. Yes I have one more year t claim the championship, but really, that's not really the point. The point is that I won't have one more year with 'B' div 06. 'B' div 07 will be with a different team. You can never imagined how we bonded with the seniors this year. Noone will take away the special bond that 'B' div 06 shares. This post is a tribute t my fellow beloved teammates.
Forwards ;
You guys are our shooters and scorers. The ones who get us short corners. The one who makes me feel helpless as the last line of defence.
Krystle ;
I remeber Nordin said, that even though you didn't really do your job as a forward ie. scoring and taking shots, he was very satisfied with you cause you were the best defending forward around. T see you doing your job t mark who you were supposed t mark and t harrass them like crazy gave me hope. You were great as the first line of defence.
YJ / Lucy ;
YOU! Our effective high centre forward. It was nice t see you penetrating the D and taking great shots at goal and getting us short corners. I WIL MISS TEASING YOU ABOUT YOUR FINE! Heehee. And calling you Lucy. We still have one more year together, continue t work hard!
Ais ;
You were the one who scored just at the right time, the one that would surprise us. Your reverse hit during the swiss cottage game, it just awed me beyong words. I bet everyone thought you were soft but you proved otherwise. Forever fighting for the ball and coming back t defend.
Pui Sheen ;
Haha, I'll miss your high pitched voiceand scream! And your "Sure miss la!" when we were doing flicks. SPOILT BRAT! Haha. You were there when we needed you, t penetrate the D and pressure the defenders. And, THANKS for always helping bring my goalie pads everywhere during club matches! Heehee.
Nanthini ;
Even though you injured your ankle, you would do anything for the sake of the team and for that, I salute you! Forever running for the ball and runnig forward or making great passes when you with the ball. DEY! Heehee, I'll miss listening t you and Nad talk in THAT accent.
Stella ;
You didn't get much chance t play but you have proved t be a versatile player. From being a defender t a forward, no matter what position you played, you tried your best.
Midfield ;
The heart of the team. The ones who relay the ball from defence t attack. Going up t attack then coming back down t defend.
Nad ;
OUR HEART AND SOUL! Heehee. Our best centre half yet. Nordin thought you were gu niang and soft but you proved t be the opposite! I'm really proud of you for being so strong and tahan-ing every single shit the other team gave you. Thanks for flatenning my head when it got big and all the trips home together after training. I won't have someone experienced t tighten my arm guards anymore! Sighs.
Sam ;
The one who shocked the team the most. I didn't see much of you last year but when you started coming for training, you really made a difference. You made a difference in midfield. In the semis and final, I could see the passion in your eyes, relighted. Thank you for doing your best when we needed you.
Melody ;
You're a real skinny, boney girl! But you proved t be a really tough girl! I remember when you cried during semis not cause of the pain but cause you wanted t play so badly. Rest your knee mann! You deserve it. Your hits were so powerful from such a thin girl and you showed everyone not t mess with you just cause you were thinner and looked fragile. YOU WERE NOT! Whether you played midfield or forward, you made a huge impact.
Si Jing ;
Your rubber face cracks me up all the time! Haha, THAT weird smile and the I can't be bothered atttitude. I don't know what the team would be without you. I know you didn't play our first two games and your form dipped slightly but you improved tremendously during the course of the tournament. RUN LIKE THE WIND, my friend.
Sitt ;
Everytime you would take a free hit, I would be scared that you would lift the ball but everytime you stepped up t take that hit/sweep, the ball would always be flat and accurate. You were a hard player and put your own body on the line, t be pushed or shoved like in our semis, when you fell like a NANGKA BUSUK! Haha. I'll miss the rides home with the rest and the KAP trips.
Andrina ;
You didn't play much but when you did, you kept up the standard of the game. Your superb basics and confidence lifted up the whole team. Always strive for more and look forward.
Defence ;
You guys are the best defence I could play with. You constantly relieved me of pressure and the superb wall that you form would make any keeper feel safe.
Yu Sheng ;
The best defender ever! My beloved captain who pushed us everytime. Constantly giving us teamtalks and always putting high expectations on us. I'm happy t have been playing under you, t give me confidence everytime I felt down. Your tackles were the best. And your command over the team sometimes makes me wish I were you. Noone would ever replace you. And your power hits! Oh gosh.
Polly ;
My vice captain! Who was there when Sheng was busy. And even when Sheng was around you were there. My left back who was there t save my ass all the time. Your tackling, turning and pumping the ball up was great. Even though the other players were so much taller than you, you didn't allow that t stop you from performing your best all the time.
Annabelle ;
My right back who I had t keep screming at t get the ball and mark your defender. But you always did your job. Even against the toughest and best forwards, you kept the ball out of the D, seldom succumbing t the pressure. Your power hits were also the best in keeping the pressure of us.
Wendy ;
The only sec 3 in defence. But you really stepped up t your position and have done a great job! I didn't think that you could make it but you really awed me. Your tackles were good and your interceptions too. You never gave up and only kept preservering on.
Donica ;
The calmest defender ever. Your flat stick tackles were good. And your stopping for short corners were the best! Your clamness when getting the ball made me feel calm too.
Sakinah ;
You didn't get t play much but when you did, you proved t Nordin that you deserved the chance t play. I was proud of you when you refused t let the forward beat you. You kept your stick flat and kept following the forward, keeping the pressure off of us.
Celeste ;
Just like Sakinah, you proved t Nordin that you deserved t play. You were at the right place at the right time and you did you job really well, marking and following your player.
That's the last of it I think. Sighs. Reading my teammates blogs made me cry. I just wished the season had lasted longer.
CRESCENT HOCKEY FOREVER.
- Joyene
Friday, March 24, 2006
'B' div 06.
Today 'B' div ended. It was sad cause we didn't win but good since we only lost 2-0 on PENALTIES. Hmmm. I'm sorry seniors. I know you guys wanted it really bad. I'm really sorry team. I made a mistake during the flicks. The 4th one, I wasn't really focused. Shit. I feel damn bad. Sighs.
I love the team, Nordin, Rilaini, our supporters. I'm sad it had t end with a loss, but I gues settling for 2nd is not that bad.
People came up t me after the game and said I played a great game. Even the most unexpected people. Mummy came for the match and supported and cried when I cried too. I love her. Nat too! (:
The people I love in my life make me happy, no matter wht happens.
- Joyene
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
We are the champions, my friends.
Hello ! (: I'm like so goddamn freaking happy larh ! (: Hee hee. Match today was GREAT I tell you. People not there watching it, what a waste ! (: So, lets elaborate on the game.
Northland today, defending champions for 5 years! BUT, no more! (: Tee hee. Yea, they were skillful and all, but like Nordin said, a team of stars may be good individually but may not work together but a team of maybe 2 stars and other workers do better as a team. So anyway, back t the match. First half, we dominated the game, attacked lots and lots. Second half it was like half half. They attacked quite a bit and even almost scored a goal which was allowed till Rahimah spoke up and said it wasn't. YAY! Lucky pls. Cause right, the ball was coming so I wanted t go out and kick it but Annabelle tried t deflect it away. I was too fast alr so I couldn't stop and ended up banging into her then she toppled on me then the ball rolled behind me and I couldn't see anything and the next moment I heard Miz (Is that how you spell it?) blow for a goal. But everyone started protesting then she consulted Rahimah. Then Rahimah spoke up! She actually said it wasn't a goal and so they didn't get the goal! PHEW. Played till full time, still draw 0-0 so went t extra time. 5 mins per half, damn short la! Hahaha, before I knew it, Miz blew her whistle for full time of extra time. So meaning we go into flicks! I knew everyone was like trying t push the game into flicks la. Haha, the way we trained t flick every training, I think everyone was damn confident in us. So, Sheng decided that we should defend first. Yea.
Their first flick, Lee Min vs me. I seriously thought that she would aim some top net goal that I couldn't save la. Hmmm. Ended up, she flicked directly in the centre so I saved that. Hmmm. Then our first flick, Sheng took it. She flicked nicely like during training and the keeper got her stick to it but it was too powerful so it still ended up going into the goal. So we were one-nil up. Their second flick, Mardiah took it. She flicked too far right and thus I didn't have t save it even though I dived. Quote unquote Nadrah, saying it after the game “Wah, I liked the one that you jump t save Mardiah's then when you landed you roll roll on the ground la!” Haha, damn cute, that woman. So yea, they still haven't scored the goal. Hmmm. Our second flick, YJ took it. Wah damn tension. Then she just push direct t the corner of the goal, damn nice also la! Hahaha, the goalie couldn't reach her ball in time. Hmmm. Their third, the girl pushed t my left and the weight of my body was alr on my right so I couldn't save it. BUT, it was a double touch SO, it wasn't counted. HAHA. (: Then our third, Polly took it and she pushed just shy of the goal. Like just a lil more she could have scored but yea. So, pressure was on me for the fourth flick. Girl tried t lift the ball but it was direct t me, so I just stopped it with my left hand BUT ball decides t bounce off and hit my helmet and make me panic only. Was searching searching for the ball after that, was damn scared it went in la. Lucky it didn't. We didn't keep track of the number of flicks so when I saw the Northland people crying, I was wondering why. Haha, so I turned back and asked Rahimah, “Eh? Finish alr ar? So we won?” Haha, she nodded then suddenly Nordin screamed, “WE ARE IN THE FINALS!” Haha, I was damn happy, threw all my stuff in the air and ran t Nadrah, cause I told her I'd give her a kiss if I saved the strokes and I really did pls! Hahahaha, OMG. So we started running to each other, hugged and hugged and screamed and screamed and cheered like there was no end. Haha.
Lots of people congratulated us after that, I felt like a hero! Haha. Nordin was like telling us that he respects us a whole lot la. (: I love Nordin, he's my inspiration, OUR inspiration. Without him, we'd have never gone this far in the tournament. I <3333333333333333333 him many many! (:
So, FINALS, vs St Nicks. Friday at 3pm at Delta. So yea, people, COME DOWN AND SUPPORT! (:
CRESCENT HOCKEY FOREVER!
- Joyene
Friday, March 17, 2006
No more walking around with my head down.
Hey there, said I would be on hiatus till ytd but I was too lazy t update. Hmmm. There's something wrong with my blog cause I can't seem t visit it. Tsk la. Pissed.
Malacca was fun. Shopped like crazy.
Training was damn tiring la. Body hurts now. Hmmm, but all in preparation for Monday's game. (:
Game, Monday, CCAB, 330. Semi finals VS Northland, defending champs. We're gonna put up a real good fight and we're gonna win and claim OUR trophy. (: Crescent Hockey forever! (:
- Joyene
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Here I go thinking about all the things I could have done.
Hey world. Joyene is happy/sad girl today. She can't decide. Wtvr la. Asshole.
Got nothing t blog about. Going on hiatus till Wed or Thurs. Going Malacca! I just wished I could bring someone along. Nvr mind.
Talking t you makes me happy, yet it keeps bringing me down. WHY?
- Joyene
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
I'm gonna part like it my birthday.
HEY! It IS my birthday. Haha, I'm 15 now! (: I feel old. Gosh.
Got the best birthday present ever today. Played Teck Whye. Was quite tough, they fought hard and everything but we won! 1-0. Damn happy, we made it t semi finals! (: But the next game's kinda hard, like we're playing Northland. But I'm very happy we got top 4 alr la! (((((: I just hope even if we lose, we lose in penalties. Like at least we know we fought hard. Yupp. Gotta train like fcuk in the holidays, the first Monday of school is the game alr. Just hope we played like how we did vs STC and Teck Whye.
Birthday today wasn't too bad. I didn't expect much so yea. Haha, hope t go out with BFF on Saturday! (:
Joyce told me she asked the Pure Geog students from my class out for a movie. ): Final Destination 3. Then she told em that she would need someone t cling on to. ): SIGHS. Its ok la, Maybe I'll go crash. Hahaha. (:
I'll go eat now, I'm starving!
- Joyene
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Next t be with you
Hello world! Joyene t world. *buzzbeep* Haha, sorry i\'m feeling very lame today. Haha. Hmmm.
Oh, match ytd, STC. Drew 1-1. Quite happy apart from the fact that I let in a stupid goal. TSK. Never mind la, concentrate on next match. Hmmm. Stupid period. Made me thirsty so i drank till I got bloated. Vomited during half time ytd. Damn shit. I almost wanted t tell Nordin I didn\'t wanna play. But i hadta so I did. Was running t my post then Nadrad said I was running like Baywatch. Haha. Almost died, was dehydrated and all. Collapsed after final whistle and started shaking all over. Rilaini piggybacked me all the way off the pitch. Wah she damn strong la. Hahahaha.
My prev VERY long post got deleted somehow, so this post is kinda short cause I\'m so irritated. TSK. Anyway, gotta go now. Crezawards auditions later, scared.
(Game tmrw, Teck Whye. 445, CCAB. Again, supporters pls do come down. We gotta win or at least draw t get t the next round. Yupp. Semis, here we come!)
- Joyene
Sunday, March 05, 2006
You're in everyone I see.
I just came back from Crescent vs Police match. Hmm. It was a tough match fer em. Drew 0-0. They played well and all and I was getting hyper on the bench. HAHA. So funny k. I was more scared than em. Haha. Hmmm. She was Police number 7 today. Right wing. Haha, and she was playing the side where the bench was larh. For the first half. Haha. She damn rough can, anyhow ram into Andrina then Andi tumbled and injured her knee la, got blood and all. And Shana thinks that she's very bimbo and Celeste thinks she's damn cheena. Hahaha, but she played well. And again, I didn't say Hi t her. I felt stupid la. Hahaha.
Hmmm. I wanna watch Moulin Rouge on TV but my mum is watching it too and she's getting on my nerves so I'll just watch the movie on my com. Sheesh. Pathetic la. But never mind. I think the song El Tango De Roxanne is such a powerful song. Its in the movie btw.
I'll be back t blog maybe later, gotta go do something for my mum.
See ya.
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I'm back.
Match tmrw, I'm so scared i swear.
Random rantings.
Sorry. I'll go now before i bore your socks off.
- Joyene
Saturday, March 04, 2006
PUSH :
Oh, your name is PUSH? My name is PULL then. Haha. Really, I think you're stupid t give yourself a name like that. Or, your parents are stupid t give you a name like that. Haha. Just use your real name la, coward. Tsk tsk. You know why I don't know whether t like Ms Tham or not? Its cause I don't even msg her. And if you think my posts have been about someone else, then you're just plain Stupid. Sheesh, kids nowadays.
When I fall in love, I take my time. There's no need t hurry when I'm making up my mind.
I woke up late this morning, so I ended up being late for training. Luckily only like err, 10 mins late. Haha. Art was kinda screwed. I swear my art piece looked damn screwed. Hahahahahaha. Hmmm. Went t town with Natria after art. Haha, been so long since I went out with her pls. Was so fun! Saw people in town, many much much. Haha.
Team thinks sometimes when I scream at em its demoralising. I'm sorry team, it's just that you won't understand how I feel. It's like I'm the last line of defence and even if i wanted t, there's nothing I can do t help you guys score or something. Its just really demoralising from the back t see you guys screw up passes and shots at goals. That's all. I don't mean any harm. I'll try not t sound so demoralising the next match k? I'm truly sorry.
So anyway, next match is on Monday, 445, CCAB. Vs STC. Quarter-finals, first match. Anyone free t come down pls do drop by and support Crescent Hockey.
And another point, heard that STC beat teck whye. And that kinda helps us I guess? I'm not t sure anyway.
I've decided t forget the one here and go for the one leaving.
- Joyene
Friday, March 03, 2006
Just t reply t PUSH, be hounoured I'm actually blogging for you.
UGLY? Really? Oh no! I'm so sad... RIGHT. At least i have a name and a face. You got no face, shy t put your name? Oh no, sad case le. Haha, rejected? You wish. Wish somemore. Haha. I haven't even made the first move, how t be rejected? Get your facts straight larh. Don't come a bitch without knowing anything. Just proves your really shallow.
And after everything, I'm still crawling back t you.
Well I know I know I've acted foolish, but I promise you no more.
Joyene t Earth. Haha, I just realised my birthday's coming SOON! (: But sadly I think I have a very important match on that day. But then again, anything for Crescent Hockey!
Training tmrw at 7, then Art at 8.30. Gotta chiong ar! Tsk tsk. But nvr mind, again for Crescent Hockey. I just hope I wake up on time tmrw. Haha.
Ok la, gotta go now I guess. See ya arnd guys!
- Joyene
let's just kiss and make up.
she's not in school today. i'm sadddd. POUTS. ):
ok, atiq complained that my post was a freaking short one.
so i'll add lots of spaces t make it long
since i can't think of anything else t say.
-joyene
Thursday, March 02, 2006
why can't i breathe whenever i think about you?
i went for training today. and got hit at all the wrong places. tsk tsk. now i have bruises all over. tsk larh. we got t quarters. same group with STC and teck whye. sighs. next match is on monday when i can actually go home early. TSK. nvr mind. anything for crescent hockey. anyway, i swear everyone was trying t kill me today. POUTS.
ok, today was pretty much fcuked up apart from hockey. err, she got 4 As for A levels. haha, damn happy! hmmm. but she may be studying in US, i'm sad. sighs. nvr mind larh. not say she's gonna be mine anyway, right?
betrayed and hurt
- joyene
fuck what i said, it don't mean shit now
fuck all the
fuck all those kisses, it didn't mean jack.
FUCK YOU, YOU HO, I DON"T WAN'T YOU BACK.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
it was only a kiss how did it end up like this ?
i don't know what t say. its only her you blog/talk/think about. i've got no place in your heart. why lead me on then? to think i would have forgotten her for you. i thank god i didn't.
its too late now. you've made me
unreachable.
to think i fell in love with you,
flirt.
now fuck off and leave me alone.
- joyene
Saturday, February 25, 2006
unreachable
why do i let these tears fall for someone who doesn't feel the same way about me ?
its pointless.
i'm lost broken and confused. but i STILL can't give up on you.
WHY?
- joyene
and i'm looking at your picture cause its all i've got, maybe one day you and me will have one shot.
i can predict a very sad bday this year. noone special t celebrate it with. sighs. i guess that's the way life is. its unfair. fcuking unfair.
she's leaving soon. two weeks i think. i'm sad sad sad. no more eye candy in eng lessons. no more guessing what she'll wear. no more blushing when she comes near. sighs. i just hope we can still keep in touch when she leaves. i just hope so.
my thumb my thumb my thumb <3
be mine, please.
- joyene
would you look at her
she's got me thinking about her constantly
aye world. life's been pretty much fcuked up. i really don't see the point of love anymore. i'm willing to forget one just for another. but i can't. cause i can't forget one and the the other keeps telling me not t forget her. fuck it you may not understand but fuck. sheesh. i'm so vulgar tday. tsktsktsk.
went out with bff (natria) ytd, ate oreo cheese cake from tcc even though i was fucking broke. i only have 9 bucks left in my atm till the 12th pls. broke broke broke. i need t borrow money from loan shark. hahahahaha!
i sprained my shoulder but it feels better today. can move it around and all. but still uncomfortable like want come out. then everytime i like t lift up my arm, its start shivering. tsktsktsk. stupid shoulder.
me and yasmin came up with a new spelling of stupid cause she misspelled it the other time. syupid. hahahaha.
atiq ;
if you're reading this. i hope you're fine now. i don't know what t say t you about her. but like. if she wants t leave then let her go ok? maybe its time t move on. and since she has another. you gotta forget her. pls. i hope you don't do anything foolish. <3
i'm still in love with two.
- joyene
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
you suck
yj just told me its my trademark phrase. i didn't know that.
i'm in school now and i'm not feeling myself. love hurts like fuck i don't feel like loving anymore. someone sweep me off my feet pls.
i mean. i don't know if source s is reliable. i mean, she likes her too. she might be biased against me. wtf. kill me pls.
- joyene
Monday, February 20, 2006
crescent hockey number 1 !
i'm so amazed at myself and my team. i never knew how commited they could be.
st nicks match today. we went into the game knowing we had everything t fight for and we did. we proved em all wrong.
to crescent b div 06, i just wanna say i am really proud of all of you. how you guys fought today for every ball, how hard you tackled, how hard your hits were.
its true, its not about how good you are, its how bad you want it.
my leg was so painful today, but in the game, i didn't feel a single thing. IN THE ZONE. hahaha. then after the game my leg felt like it was gonna drop off. haha.
nordin named me man of the match today but i really think the whole team deserved t be MEN of the match. really. i've never seen us fight so hard. if crescent were t play like this every single game, we would be champions of the universe! but no matter what, we're still champions in my heart. (:
carnival on saturday and sunday. i didn't know if you played on saturday you couldn't play on sunday! hahaha. nordin ask me t play so i played larh. hahaha. i played for NTU on sunday and turns out they're really nice and funny ppl. ahahahaha. so anyway, drew with SCC and POLICE B (she was playing for em. she was wearing number 2 though) and then i got hit at the groin during SRC match. and the worst part is that after that, the ball rolled into the goal. after that played crescent. my leg was hurting damn bad so i kinda gave up a lil. lost 3-0 but aye, i think NTU played really well. i just found out that they just played together only today larh. hahaha.
on saturday, we almost made it to the finals but but but we lost out on goal diff t jansenites. sighs. we only lost t jansenites though. hmmm. but it was a good experience.
from 9 -5 on sunday, i saw her at delta. and i couldn't bring myself t say hi or wave or smile. i was waiting for her t do that. so i kinda like got pissed when nothing happened and today i came t school with a black face. hahaha. then her face also black larh. BUT, just as she was baout t leave school and i just reached school in the cab, i decided t be nice and say bye t her! suddenly her face changed from black t i don't know what colour. hahaha. then she said bye back and waved and she suddenly looked so happy. suddenly it hit me. we were both waiting for each other t say something. WTH. hahaha.
- joyene
Friday, February 17, 2006
aye!
hmmm. its supposed t be lit now but big black and fat is not in class. i\'m like three periods away from heaven! (: hahaha. hmmm. so, i\'m quite sure she should be coming down for hockey carnival this sunday. BUT, mr nordin might tell me that i won\'t have t come! shit larh. i desparately wanna go. i do i do i do. (: but rightt, i\'ll be playing for NTU then i\'ll be like so weird but fuck larh. as long as i can see her. hahaha. IMAGINE! NTU vs POLICE. i\'ll just die if she like plays forward or something. i\'ll just like let in her goals larh. hahaha. hmmm. i remember her number, its 5! hahaha. hmmm. me and atiq bet on what she\'s gonna wear today. i bet balck top, brown skirt. atiq bet black top, white pants. we\'re both partially correct though. hahaha. she was wearing a black top and brown pants. hahaha. (: i\'m so freaking bored i swear i wanna die. 1115 hurry come!
- joyene
Thursday, February 16, 2006
i don't believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now
there's so many things i wanna say t you but i don't how. atiq said she stared at me during eng paper. i don't believe. hahaha. hmmm. i got eye contact with her though.. hmmm. anyway, i hate ms m_ _ _ _ _ cause she held her hand. i wanted t kill her larh! sheesh. like she's mine like that. so over protective. nvr mind. but like, i was so heartbroken larh. i swear i could hear my heart break. so anyway. yea i miss her alr. (:
- joyene