You've got the whol world ahead of you, I'm sorry I didn't say good bye, I'm sorry I made you cry.
I lost a best friend, quite sometime ago and she lost me last night. Now I'm ready t open up and make her understand what I'm feeling, what I've been feeling.
She was the bestest best friend I could ever have. But she met someone else and forgot about me. She liked that person and since then she changed. She kept coming t me for advice but everytime I told her something, she wouldn't listen. I got fed up with her coming t me t complain and whine all the time but I held on strong and tried t be her pillar of strength. After a while, I started falling for her. And when I told her, she told me she liked me back. But all the time, it was always about someone else. I could have given my all t her till she told me we couldn't be cause she treasured our friendship more. I had already given 3/4 of me and t hear that was heartbreaking. Still, I never stopped being her friend. When I had finally gotten over her, she told me she liked me. I didn't know what t do. So I decided, ignoring her was the best thing I could do, cause I didn't wanna lead her on. I thought, I'll ignore her till I was very sure she didn't like me anymore. But things didn't turn out like I expected. I began t get angry with her for breaking up with her ex and going for this other girl, who didn't like me a single bit. Neither do I. I began beng tempremental. Yea, I know I was wrong. But sometimes, things just have t happen. No matter how hard I tried t control, I just couldn't. A few nights ago, I asked her, why her and not her ex? And she talked t me, and told me all the things she did when she liked me. T tell you the truth, I cried so I told her I didn't wanna talk t her anymore. Cause it was just gonna hurt me. Last night, she came with her group of friends and she was there. I lost my temper, a scene broke out. But I cried. Why? Cause honestly, I hated her. I hated her for taking my best friend away from me and changing her. She wasn't gonna be committed t her, I knew that. But my best friend wouldn't listen t me. She couldn't see it. I guess she decided t break off all ties with her alr, last night. I guess that's how things had t turn out.
To my ex best friend ; Atiq. I still love you as my best friend. But if things had t turn out like this then I guess we just gotta let this be. I'll be here for you when you decide t talk t me again. I'll always be here when you need me. Maybe I just needed time then.
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CrezAwards ytd was ok. Recorded my dance and it looked a lil screwed la. But it was ok but we didn't win. Sheesh. Got second. Sighs. Nvr mind, it was a great experience. Yupp.
